End of emotional Kinn

Recently, I m being so emotional.... in the pass 2 months... for some reason.... I was quite in a bad mood in general... maybe because I was always thinking about leaving the company or leaving the country... but then yesterday ... it seems that I have look through it... I knew I definitely have not enough money to move back... even i go back.. maybe I have to get a job instantly and can't really spend any time to look for a better one.. then... worse money, probably the same (or even worse) shitty job, and longer working hour.... mmm... except i can get a really good job first.. I will not go back i think..... so... everything decided... mmm... good...

I think another thing really upset me... really let me down is my relationship things.... mmm... I think I get use to the life like this really... I sort out the allergy problem with my sofa, use to talk to myself... mmm...

For fatfat's bf... I also kinda get through it... I remember why I did that... I know we will be together again... haha... in a certain point in our life... we will... just maybe a bit longer... I don't really care... let's myself concentrate on something else... I will be okay.. ^^

mmm i have to be myself again... always smiling to others... meet more friends... work harder... more concentrated... !!! haha... swim more.... play a bit basketball....~~~