Conceited

Recently, I have been told, I m kind of too self-confidence, see myself better than I am, in other words, i m conceited. mmm... Normally people would refuse at once when being told like this. Honestly, I m trying to defends myself as well. but I really don't know what make him have this kind of judgement. What should I defends? I never think I m good at anything indeed... let say in the design field, I always think, I m not good at all... I need a lot of improvement... I don't think my level is bad and in my experence, most of the people study design is quite shit to me. but I do think I am better than most of people who never study design... I want to find some more example, but I suddenly find that, most of my life is about design... mmm nothing else I really can use for that... maybe haha. actually I don't think I need to . I am just myself, I don't care how anyone to see me... I shouldn't have too much time spending on telling everyone I am not what they think, to me (I believe to everyone), it is quite stupid and waste of time. Doesn't help anything. Most people only use their eyes to judge others (me as well, it is quite straight forward, who would spend time on analysis everyone around them?)... Or if people doesn't understand, if they just simply not reaching that level, nothing can be explain. let say, if you try to explain what is film language, and some philosophy behine the movie to someon who only see "wong ching" or "Jim Currey"... it maybe a kind of waste of time. I didn't mean "wong ching" and "Jim Currey" is not good or something, but people watch those kind of movie only want entertainment. Fuck the Philosophy~~~ adversely, they would say, "sense of humor, okay?" Just different things, don't think too much.

How to define the following words?
self-affirmative
self-appreiative
self-assertive
self-approval
self-assured
self-complacent
self-esteem
self-worship
?? all of them are becoming difficult after adding "self"

btw, I have quite a good plan on Tracy's London Trip lo, yeah yeah yeah~~~ so serious lerh

mmm... I have to write something else in the coming future!!!! too serious seems not really my writing.. haha~~~