Chaos

These 2 days, I m living in chaos...

I guess I looked okay... coz no one notice i m not alright... Actually I don't really know what i am doing,... seems like my soul have left my body going somewhere else... poor my body is just working hard to keep doing what I used to do, what i have to do. I have talked to some friends or mine... everyone think... just let him go.. what can you do... I shouldn't even have any hard feeling. But fuck that should or shouldn't... I just have feeling, I just upset.... I hate it happen... I just can't put it down. yup... I had it coming... what can I say, it's all my fault...... but maybe thats why I m confused.... I don't know what to do... what should i do... what can I do... somehow I have forseen this....

I am not thinking of you more than normal, but normally, when I think of you, I just smile to myself, and life goes on. But now I just can't.... suddenly seems that thinking about you more then anything... didn't I say you are handsome? I thought i did... maybe I just never say it to you, but do you know how many times i did in my brain, how many times i did to my friends... but whatever... everything have a date... an expire date... is this song again... I really can't remember too many song...

就這麼　匆促的
來不及　相信　包裝的說明
就這麼　忽略了
錯過了　應該　服用的日期

就這麼　冷靜的
清楚的　放棄　製造的產品
就這麼　脆弱的
標示著　兩年　一切的真空

＊就這麼過期　我們的愛情
　就慢慢死去　我們的愛情
　地老天荒　是塑膠袋的壽命
　唯一過期的是愛情＊

就這麼　慢慢的
一點點　消失　永恆的可能性
就這麼　坦然的
勇敢的　承認　遺忘的本能

REPEAT＊

唯一過期的是愛情　愛情
就這麼過期　我們的愛情...

there are too many voice talking in my brain... "you should give he a blessing and stop talking"..., "you should go back to the place belongs to yourself...", "you should wait for a chance and fight it back", "you wont be accepted again, dead your heart la... how you treat on him, do you still remember?" , " what you expect ar... his is having his new life lerh", "he've been waiting for such a long time... you just had it coming....", " no one would 可憐你 ga la"..., "even you go back, you can't make him happy", "friend la, friend ho ar... can last for longer", " you cannot make yourself to be what he want ga la....forget it la...." lalalla...~~~~ whawhahwhahw..... ahhahahahaha..... chi sin... what I am saying....

maybe if you read this.... you would laugh on me... you would think, chi sin... it is not hard time lerh... babe..

life should go on, that's what I have said.... haha.... I m happy that you said it back to me... but as i said... I still think it is not the end of the story... just need some time... we are not 2 parallel lines... we are not straight lines either... must be in some point.... cross each other....

or maybe you dont even want to read what I write again... I m such a un-honest guy... or.... jsut let me giving some shit talk here la... in Chaos ma... no one can help... no one can understand... no one... just myself...