Ticket confirmed

~yo.... I confirmed the ticket to go back hk... for a month... But, if I haven't got the work permit... what will I do?? absolutely frustrated!... The first time I really want to go back to hk that much since i came to uk... even last time.. I didnt really wanna go back indeed... The feeling of uncertainty come back to me again... just... not upset, not excited... but uncertain... I hate uncertain.. don't think any one like it though... but I have been experienced it for over half year... no one can feel this feeling deeper than me (Tracy: really?), i think... It just keep me away from creation... no any, even just a mere, thinking during the period...
uncertainty = happiness + excitement x depression + frustration