Noooo~

I can't believe that I still feel upset when I talk to him... it's been such a long time since that happened and I supposed to have no feeling at all. But I am feeling like "what else I am supposed to say" when i talk to him~ :( um... the first time I feel myself pretending "dai fong" when meet up.... Its not quite nice obviously. Yup~ and I found myself really a little bit hate him...~ I can hate anyone but why I have to hate him...!? very frustrated .\ /. seems that I am very "siu hay" gum T_T... I want to deny, but it still hurt... No~~~ I know I will be okay very soon... (how many times I have said that?) um... maybe this is the last time I say this here...